Golden

(I don’t have a quote or lyric, yet again, but I can tell you that I’m listening to The Scene Aesthetic music over and over and over tonight.)

I had so many things to write about today. 

But now I feel like I need to write for S.

Right now I want to cry for her. No joke. 

She recently found a guy (D) who seemed, for lack of a better word, legit. He came with baggage, which she was skeptical about, but she realized that there’s no point in trying to make things work with another person unless you’re in it a hundred percent.

And she was hopeful. S was filled with the glorious hope that lights you up and makes you optimistic about everything. And it’s rare to find such abandon in a person. It’s powerful and respectable; it's inspiring.

And tonight, he just fucked everything up. Parties, a few exchanged text messages, and S is feeling like she’s been burned by the little flame of hope that she was holding onto and kindling so well (her analogy, not mine).

And I want to cry for her because i know how she feels, the betrayal. I think everyone, girls and guys, know how she feels right now. There’s been that person in everyone’s life that seems so promising, and ends up only screwing everything up. 

Lost hope is probably one of the worst feelings. 

I wish I could help her, I really do. Alas, I’m terrible at giving advice. I used to be good at it, but then I turned cynical and what I call “realistic”. 

Sometimes, though, you need to let go of the realistic, and turn to the optimistic. You need to fully abandon everything you feel is “unachievable” or “could never happen” and just go for it. Feel the rush, feel the risk. Don’t think about what the consequences could be. 

So tonight, I revere S for doing just that; being optimistic. It’s refreshing and it’s contagious. She is legitimately one of, if not the, nicest person I’ve ever met. She commands so much respect and she keeps her conscience clean. She’s genuine, which is a difficult task to find in a person nowadays. S is just one of those people who is constantly happy and positive. Maybe not always on the inside, but on the outside she is. And she will listen to you rant about your day for as long as you need to. In a way, she’s like a mom. She’s not matronly or anything, but you know that you can trust her. She’s always willing to help you, hear you, and snuggle with you if you need the comfort. 

So S, keep your chin up. And as cliche as it sounds, you’re golden. Don’t forget that.  

-Liz